Sunday night, I had the sudden urge to get out all the photos that I have in my possession and organize them because I really want to get back into scrapbooking. I have been craving doing something creative for a very very long time now and I love scrapbooking.
The pictures I found made me laugh. I looked at all the baby (and by baby I mean tiny teeny little baby pictures) of my wonderful, giant 2.5 year old. I miss the days of him not talking back or saying "no" everytime I ask him a question. It was nice to remember the day he was born and all the people we had with us. I remember sitting in my kitchen and clutching my dog for dear life trying to convince my husband that no one would notice if we snuck him into the hospital with us.
Then I found some AWESOME pictures of my husband and I when we were in high school and college. We both looked at those and realized just how much we've changed in 10 years. I mean, we started dating when he was 17 and I was 16. My husband will turn 27 in March and he's having a hard time with this birthday. I think he's realized finally that the majority of his 20s are behind him - LOL.
Looking at those pictures just made me think back at how far I've come and its made me realize how much further I have to go still. It really is about the journey, not the destination. I highly doubt that I've reached my potential quite yet and I refuse to believe that I peaked at 17 years old in high school. I've just realized how truely blessed I've been and how blessed I continue to be. Its so exciting getting to watch my son grow up, learn things, and become who he is. Its awesome getting be a little kid again essentially. I always joke that I peaked at 6 years old. I get to be 6 again! Its awesome!!! Although, I do recall having more energy when I was 6... Wish that came around again...
Running update: Went for 3 miles this morning. I got it done in 36:35 which is about a full minute faster than my 3 miler on Saturday. I still think I'm pushing myself too hard but I finished strong and I had a little bit more left in the tank. Thursday's run will be 3.5 which is going to be
What I really need to do is to stop doubting my bodies abilities though. I've been in the mindset for so long that I'm not a runner. And then it was the mindset of I'm a slow runner. Then I wasn't anything for a while. I need to stop thinking that way, realize that I'm awesome, and remind myself that I am an athlete. I may not be breaking course records or getting endorsement deals, but I am an athlete for the mere fact that I am training and running and getting out there and doing it. Long and short of it, I'm way more of a head case as a runner than I ever was a discus thrower.
What are your biggest obstacles?
Kathy
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